Thursday, May 8, 2014

Ten Things Thursday :)

Omg, ladies, the amount of stress that I have been under is crazy. I'm too tired to form a lot of coherent thoughts (see: the lack of blog posts), so this is the perfect thing to do!

1. We moved into our FIRST house on April 26th. Two whole weeks in this house and it's really starting to feel like HOME <3

2. I had an appointment with my dietician on Tuesday. I'm down 20 lbs, but have 10 lbs to go before they can schedule surgery for me. I kind of beat myself up about only 20 lbs, but I need to realize that it IS a success and not be so freakin' hard on myself.

3. Speaking of surgery, it looks like I probably won't be getting it until August because I'm working all summer with no breaks.

4. The reason that I'm working all summer is because I got a new job - at a university - teaching ESL! I'm teaching summer session, so I can't really take off days in the middle to get my surgery.

5. It's literally 88 degrees here today. What the what?

6. I just realized that I am going to be drinking protein shakes every day for what seems like the rest of my life.

7. My husband wants to buy a grill, but I keep convincing him to wait until June - little does he know that I bought him one for his birthday, which is next week :)

8. One of my favorite NSV that I'm looking forward to after losing a bunch of weight is riding horses again... and having a baby. I think it's sad that I still think, every month, that I might be pregnant, even though I know that I'm most likely too heavy to conceive.

9. Anyone have ideas on how to get my puppy and my cats to get along?

10. Thankful that this is the last number because I'm literally falling asleep writing this..


Tuesday, April 15, 2014


Since I'm super lazy right now, and waiting for some arroz con pollo to finish that I'm cooking for my students, here is a nice numbered list:

1. I'm down about 10 pounds (give or take, depending on the time of day - highest was 13 pounds down) from when I started the regimen from my dietician on the 4th.

2. I'm doing SO WELL with this regimen in the morning and afternoon, but evening is where I seem to 'fail' - not so much as 'fail,' but probably eat more than I should.

3. It snowed today. On April 15th. Wtf.


5. I'm so freakin' excited about going to Chicago this weekend... and should definitely follow my regimen for the rest of this week because my husband wants to get deep dish pizza which is soooo calorie dense!!!

Happy week, all!

Monday, April 7, 2014

As For My Pre-Pre-WLS 'Diet'

As you know, I have to lose approximately 30 lbs before I am in the "desired" BMI range for my surgeon to perform the Lap-Band surgery on me. Therefore, I've been given, as my dietician calls it, a "regimen." 

I started this regimen on Friday. I really thought about doing my normal thing this weekend, but I woke up Friday and I decided that I would start that day and not put it off. Friday was good, especially because I only work half days on Fridays so I could come home and didn't have to take my shakes to work. I work at a really small place and everyone knows everything about everyone... so I'm sure the fact that I'm getting the surgery will come out sooner or later, but for right now I'm trying to keep it quiet.

I had a headache on Friday, no big deal. It lingered until Saturday and now I'm OK. Right now I'm around 1,100 calories per day and feel 100% normal. I drink a shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch (+ yogurt), and then eat my dinner with a piece of fruit and later have another shake. I feel satisfied. I do start to feel hungry about 3-4 hours after I 'eat' my shake, but no other issues.

I didn't want to weight myself until I was a week out from starting, but let's be honest here... I weighed myself this morning and my scale says I'm down 4 pounds. I just ordered a new scale because that one I have can be really wonky.

I did have some mishaps this weekend. My husband and I just closed on our house and got the keys on Saturday. On Sunday, we were at the house working and cleaning, and I forgot to bring any food with me. So, we went out to eat. I tried to find the best thing possible for me to eat but my lunch came out to 500 calories. Bummer. So I took it light the rest of the day and had my shake for dinner.

I know it's unrealistic to think that I will lose the 30 pounds in a month. I'm just so freakin' anxious to get my Band that having to wait past June will be so sad for me, considering that at that time, I will have been on the shakes for like... two and a half months!?

In other news, we got a puppy this weekend and we pick her up next Saturday after she is spayed. So yay for that!

Friday, April 4, 2014

Consultation Results

Yesterday was my consultation with my surgeon and dietician. It went extremely well, and I'm so happy that I stumbled upon them after my horrid first seminar at another clinic.

Since the office is about an hour and a half from my city, my husband and I left our house at 7:45 a.m. for my 10:20 a.m. appointment (plenty of time to spare, lol). I arrived, filled out a paper for the dietician, had my picture taken, and got weighed. My surgeon's scale weighs me about 3 pounds less than my home scale. I met with the nurse who basically verified all my information from the pre-consultation packet and then my surgeon came in.

I was so happy with him, and he gave us a very thorough explanation of how everything will work: pre-op, during the operation, post-op. He said that he expects me to lose 125 lbs in the first year, as long as I do what I am supposed to do (and following what my dietician says). I feel very confident with him. He said that my success will come from my work, but also my relationship with him and the others. He believes that our relationship will be very important, as well as my relationship with my dietician.

My BMI is quite high and it is a little bit higher than the desired maximum BMI that they prefer for the BMI. They want me to lose about 30 pounds before I can schedule surgery, and I go to meet the dietician in a month. If she is happy with my progress, they will schedule my surgery. I'm probably looking at a surgery in the beginning or middle of June.

So right now I'm drinking 3-4 protein shakes (I can sub a protein bar if I want) a day, plus a sensible dinner of 350 calories (4 oz of chicken, beef, fish, etc.) and a piece of fruit with dinner, plus she approved my daily Greek yogurt (it's an obsession). She wants me to stay at about 1,200 calories per day. No soda, no starches.

The reality of everything is hitting hard. I'm so excited and happy about all of this - even the required pre-surgery weight loss. I felt so empowered after the consultation. My husband was so happy with the doctor and I think he has finally come around 100%.

I did ask about getting pregnant, and my surgeon said if that happens, he can keep the band at it's tightness or completely release it, whatever makes me more comfortable.

Yay. Best week ever.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Prepping for my Consultation

In two days, I have my consultation!! Yay!! I'm really excited, but also pretty nervous. My husband is coming along, and I'm more nervous about him coming than I am about going to the actual consultation. He said he is going to make a list of questions to ask the surgeon. I plan on taking a list of questions to my surgeon on Thursday, as well. Therefore, I'm going to gather my thoughts and write out my questions here (and after my consult, I'll tell you the answers!):

1. How long after surgery can I return to work?
2. How soon can I have the surgery done? (I'm shooting for May 1st)
3. What happens if I get pregnant with my band? What happens if I get pregnant before I've lost all the weight? What happens if I get pregnant a few months after I get my band placed? (Clearly, I want a baby, lol)
4. Can you explain to me, in more depth, the nutrition plan that I have to follow after surgery?
5. Can I travel shortly after the surgery? (I'm going to Paris at the end of May.)
6. How many successful operations have you done? Are most of your patients successful?
7. Have you ever performed the surgery on someone with my weight/BMI and was it successful?
8. How many surgeries have you performed that were not successful? Why were the patients not successful?
9. Can I take my thyroid medication and BP medication in the morning with no problem when I have the band?
10. How often will I come in for an appointment after surgery?
11. My husband plans on asking about the surgical risk, so yeah...
12. Can you show me examples of people's progress before, during and after the band?
13. Is it possible for my body to reject the band?
14. What happens if they overfill the band? (this is my husband's question)

Any other questions you think I should ask? 

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

A Boring Update

I really don't have anything to report, lap band-wise. My consultation is next week, and I'm really looking forward to it. I called today to make an appointment for the psychological evaluation, but the secretary said she didn't know if she could make the appointment because I wasn't going to THEIR bariatric center (even though my surgeon's office recommended him to me.. so that was confusing). I explained to her that I was getting the lap band with another doctor (who is actually part of the network, but has a different office than the psychologist). She said she had to ask the director and call me back tomorrow. I thought that was odd, but okay. I will try to make the psych appointment (seriously, I always write psycho, lol) for the same day as my consultation, but we will see.

If they can't get me in, I'm going to look for another psychologist that can get me in quickly. That's the only thing standing in between myself and my surgery. Hopefully my surgeon can still schedule the surgery when I see him for the consultation. Hoping for surgery before May 1st. I've read a lot of reviews and it seems that this doctor can get you into surgery relatively quickly. I'm happy about that. He also has 100% on the reviews that I've read about him. I'm so excited about going to see him next Thursday!!

In other news, we are closing on our house on April 4th!! It's gonna be an awesome week!! It's also nice that my birthday is tomorrow ;) my husband planned something, but I'm not 100% sure what he planned yet!

Nothing else really happening, but planning on doing a lot of pre- and post-surgery planning in the next few weeks, so I'll try to post about that. I saw something about a protein shake company on Hollee's blog, so I might hop over there tonight to check it out as I am watching Survivor :)

Thanks for reading, all. Hope this week is going well with you!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Consultation Scheduled!

Today was a good day, in more ways than one.

First, I called into my surgeon's office to verify that they got my paperwork. (Sidenote: I learned yesterday that my printer can also be used a fax machine, so instead of dealing with trying to send my paperwork via email for the fourth time - seriously - I faxed that sucker off and it went off without a hitch.) Anyway, I called and I scheduled my consultation for April 3rd! I wanted to get in early, wishful thinking, but I took the first appointment that they had available. I'll have to take the day off of work because I have to drive two hours to my surgeon's office, but I don't want to wait any longer. I'll be meeting with the surgeon and the dietician on that day. All I need to do now is schedule the psych (I totally typed psycho there) evaluation, which I can do here in my city. Hoping to have the done by the time I go see my surgeon so I can schedule my surgery!

I'm really hoping for a surgery in late April/early May. If I don't schedule it then, I will have to wait until June because I am going to Paris at the end of May, and it would get in the way of doctor's appointments/surgery recovery time/the liquid phase. My husband is coming with me to my appointment and I'm a little afraid that I will start crying, which happened to me at the first seminar I went to, and that will be a little embarrassing. Ah, emotions.

Second, non-WLS related, I got news that we might close on our house a week early! I'm pretty stoked about this, and it could happen the same week that I have my consultation. Can you say, YAY?! Two awesome things happening in the same week!

Finally, today is Tuesday and that means I only have three more days of work this week - but Friday is just finals for my students. Then my husband and I are going to a painting class on Friday night... that should be... interesting...

I hope everyone is having a fabulous week!

Thanks for reading!

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Making the Decision

Many years ago, an old friend of mine got Lap-Band surgery. We were only 19 years old, and I thought that an interesting process that she had to go through. All I really remember was that she drank a lot of liquids before the surgery, and the small incision scars that she showed me after the surgery was over. She went on to lose a lot of weight, I'm not sure how much, and now is married and has a baby.

Fast forward eight years, and I'm sitting in the exact same spot that she was all the years ago. I've been overweight pretty much my entire life. I do not remember a time in my life that I haven't been overweight. I remember being about 10 years old, sitting in my bathroom and looking at my stomach, telling myself that it would "stretch out" and "go away" when I got taller. That didn't happen. I got a little bit taller, but I definitely didn't get thinner. I got heavier and heavier as the years went on. I played sports until I was 18, but I was still overweight.

I joined Weight Watchers with my mom, and dropped maybe 30-40 pounds. But I still ate horribly. I'm definitely an emotional eater. I had a couple horrible years in my early 20s where I hated my life and everything about it, mixed with living alone, and I started to really pack on the pounds. I was convinced I would never find a man to marry me, or have children, or find a great job. When I graduated from college, I went onto graduate school where I really flourished. My personality shined. I didn't worry about my weight because I had friends who liked me, I had a great social life, I was doing well in my classes.

At the end of graduate school, I met my now-husband online. He lived in a different country, so I booked a ticket to go "visit" him (I ended up staying two years). I was fearful that he would instantly reject me upon seeing me in real life, even though we had Skyped for hours on end, months in advance. He had seen me with makeup, without makeup, in dressy clothes, in pajamas, full body, only face, everything. I hated my body, and was afraid of what he really thought. He was a skinny, 150-pound man that I had fallen in love with, and I had so many doubts in my head that he could love a woman as big as me.

But, he did (and does) love me. Pure love. I gained weight while I've been with him and he tells me every day that he loves me, that he thinks I am sexy and beautiful. We've been trying to have a baby for about a year now, unsuccessfully. I've lost some weight, here and there, but never been successful at keeping it off.

So, long story short, I decided to get Lap-Band as a tool to help me lose the weight, permanently. I'm hoping to meet with a surgeon in the next few weeks for a consultation and schedule my surgery. I'm paying out of pocket because my insurance excludes the surgery, but no cost will stop me. My plan is to get the surgery, lose a significant amount of weight, and try to have a baby in another year or so.

I am scared, I won't lie. But this is what I need and want, and nothing will get in my way.

Thanks for reading.